We Only See Others Flaws, We Are Blind

Ok so, today I was walking home from school with my friend.
She was telling me about how she was high in 2nd period and was smoking this morning before we went to school.
And about how she split a pack with one of her friends.

Then suddenly,
I became jealous.
Yes, jealous.
I was actually kind of jealous that we hadn't smoked together.

I wasn't supposed to be jealous of this.
I'm not supposed to want to do that.

Then I realized,
why did I think this way?
It was as if my mind was programed or brainwashed to think,
that's wrong
that's not right
I can't do that.
I then also realized how much of my life I'd been told how to think.
What I'm supposed to think.
What I'm supposed to do.

'Supposed', whats expected, understood. Required by as if by authority.

I never realized how much I'd been brainwashed.
How much I've been programed to think and do what I've been told.
Like everything else is not right.
Like everyone else is a bad person if they don't follow.
Kinda like College: Good, Smoking: bad

I realized how much of a shell I've been shoved into,
and and how I'd let it happen.

Why as a society are we like this?
Sure smokings not necessarily good, especially for someone my age but,
why do we judge so much?
Then try to force that judgmental belief onto others?

I just don't understand.
But, now my shell is broken.

bye little trouble makers..♥